there's been a lot of changes around here lately and i feel that i can't breathe. it's not what i'm used to for sure. i'm torn between responsibility and the feeling of wanting to break free. i guess all these has been suppressed for too long and now, it's all breaking loose.
i've been told that sometimes, i'm too nice, to the extent to being a pushover. but sometimes i just wanna be a total bitch. i wanna rant and rave and just throw a tantrum and insist on MY WAY but i don't cos i can't. it's making me sick at myself.
today i woke up, convinced that everything good that's been happening is going to be taken from me.
